Goodbye to High School

My life has consisted of hurting people, making people life, lying, cheating, supporting people, encouraging people, and all the above. I am HUMAN! This means that just like eve gave that apple to Adam we all fuck up! Sometime we fuck up to the point of no return...well in terms with people. I Will always be the optimist for other people. Let alone my self. I am Glad that people tell me off and hurt me. I am very stubborn. I am the type of person you need to tell "fuck you" in order for me to understand. I guess i am a type of masochist. Which is sad. Who wants to go around hurting themselves all the time right? Well, that is just me. I am trying to change it. I guess i am somewhat emotionally retarded. I somehow fear that this will continue as i get older. I just can't wait until the day i can become one with my faults. That process has started today. Along with letting go of my Friends from High School. I guess i have hurt them too much. I know i will get over it i just need time.

Yesterday...

It is amazing how some one like John Lennon can touch millions of people that he never knew. And si still presently touching people way beyond his grave. He is dead. He was murdered in NY. He left behind his music, his wisdom and his followers. His music will never be lost. Even with all the change of the tides of music, his music is made up of all the stuff we can all relate to. Since I don’t see human beings evolving into anything yet I believe we will always be able to relate to the same things. Places change, People move, and the world may become more hectic. But the feelings and things that we strive for never changes. Not from you, to me, not from anyone. We all feel love, we all feel hurt, we all feel longing, we all feel goofy, we all feel the great things that make us feel grateful to be in existence. People may be good at hiding it but they can’t hide forever. Their feelings will eventually come back to creep up behind them. But back to what I was saying, I hear the song yesterday and I hear this mans voice and it is like “wow” I can’t believe this guy who is singing this song and touching my soul is dead right now. Yet his voice and his words are soothing me and mixing my emotions and yet he is not even alive right now! That is a great feeling. I just hope to be like that one day. To be able to Leave something behind that will make others think of me for time after time. I will. I just need to find my niche. =) Thank you John Lennon and the Beatles!

Tuesdays..so far from fridays =(

I guess if you can handle going to work on monday then you are almost over the hurdle until wednesday when it will be the middle of the week. Yet on tuesdays! it just feels like an extension of monday! You know i think it is funny how The Living End made a song about the days of the week. The Days of the week really do affect people. Mostly those who don't have a fuffilling job yet...aka..me! My job has been moving like a snail in terms of work and i am just left here chatting on blogger once again to fill up the time until i can go home! It IS ONLY 1:30!!! omg...why must time go by so slow. I wish i could go home and sleep and come back for an hour left >=) Oh well, here are some lyrics from that living end song you might enjoy~

Long Live the Weekend
by The Living End

Workin' for a man that you don't understand so forget it
Spendin' all your dough yeah you know as soon as you get it
Wastin' your time on an assembly line you want out of it
Pickin' up your pay at the end of the day and get out of it
And get away

Cause you're wonderin' if it's gonna change
Cause the weekdays are the same as always never changing

Make a break, another escape
I gotta get out, I gotta get out
Make a break, another escape
I gotta get out, I gotta get out
Long live the weekend

Monday - don't want to get out of bed
Tuesday - I'm walking with the dead
Wednesday - never felt so wrong
Thursday - takes twice as long
but Friday, i know where I'm gonna be
Faraway from the same old everyday ordinary

Make a break, another escape
I gotta get out, I gotta get out
Make a break, another escape
I gotta get out, I gotta get out
Long live the weekend
Long live the weekend

Week in, week out [repeat lots]

Well I don't care if i don't get paid
I can't sit here for one more day....
Wasting away

Well now you're wonderin' if it's gonna change
Cause the weekdays are the same as always never changing

Make a break, another escape
I gotta get out, I gotta get out
Make a break, another escape
I gotta get out, I gotta get out
Long live the weekend

Long live the weekend
Long live the weekend
Long live the weekend
Long live the weekend

Long week...

It has been a long week. I have not been doing anything worth getting excited over in work. Just the same old stuff. I keep falling asleep at my desk, which leads me to taking naps in my car...lol Oh Well. I had the odd idea of using my slow cooker that my grandma bought me for christmas. And boy what i made was GREAT! I did BBQ ribs in my slow cooker and it tastes great. So TENDER!! The meat fell right off the bone. My boyfreind loved it. I went on the foodnetwork for the recipe:


I am so tierdd...I am so glad it is FRIDAY!!...I HAVE A WHOLE WEEKEND TO SLACK OFF!!

HAPPY FRIDAY YA'LL!