The logical Song

"The Logical Song" by Supertramp






When i was young
It seemed that life was so wonderful
A miracle, oh it was beautiful, magical
And all the birds in the trees
Well they´d be singing so happily
Oh joyfully, oh playfully watching me
But then they sent me away
To teach me how to be sensible
Logical, oh responsible ,practical
And they showed me a world
Where i could be so dependable
Oh clinical, oh intellectual, cynical

There are times when all the world´s asleep
The questions run too deep
For such a simple man
Won´t you please, please tell me what we´ve learned
I know it sounds absurd
But please tell me who i am

Now watch what you say
Or they´ll be calling you a radical
A liberal, oh fanatical, criminal
Oh won´t you sign up your name
We´d like to feel you´re
Acceptable, respectable, oh presentable, a vegetable!


At night when all the world´s asleep
The questions run too deep
For such a simple man
Won´t you please, please tell me what we've learned
I know it sounds absurd
But please tell me who i am, who i am ,who i am.

weather the storm

Your feelings are like a big cloudy rain storm. It could be big and ugly and violent and it could pass by without a notice with light showers. It is sometimes unpredictable like the weather. You could wake up one day with all the happiness and joy of the world and then some unexpected rain comes in and showers on your bright sunny day. Some days you can deal with the rain and enjoy it on a different level. Others, it brings you down and keeps you unfocused and dreary. I guess like the weather it is all a cycle..and ongoing cycle that never ends. I guess I should try to get use to it but who really likes to get stuck in rain?

Being bored is a disease

I have come to realize that being in the state of boredom is very unhealthy for anyone. When you are bored your enthusiasm goes down you feel like crap and you just feel like there is no reason to live or keep on doing anything because life is so boring. I suffer from boredom all the time and it usually leaves me in a state of depression which is hard TO get out of sometimes. I seriously feel that boredom is a disease. It starts of as nothing and slowly. Then it just gets full blown and takes over your mind, body and soul. You just feel like there can be nothing else as bad as being bored. There is nothing to do , no one to talk to or hang out with just yourself and your thoughts. And who the hell wants to think about all the crap they have to deal with for 8 hours...NO ONE!!. Idleness really is the devils hand and i for one am tired of bring BOREDDD!!

Feeling Strangly Fine

Well, Here i am again in the middle of the work week typing at my workstation wondering when i am going to be getting some really work to do. I saw this move over the weekend called "the science of sleep". It was so weirdddd..but i loved it. It sometimes reminds me of how i see things with out the massive distortion from dreams to reality. But i loved the ending. This dude is obviously mentally unstable but not really harmful. He ends up telling the girl he loves that he loves her because everyone else is boring and she is different. I have said that before to someone else that i had loved and yet still ended with the same conclusion. Lost in a dream world where it never really happens but in my dreams. I cried at the end which i don't know why. I felt bad for the guy. I also felt like this guy is so freaking smart but he is so crazy. I like it =)

Anyway..should see it if you like indie films..if yo don't you will never get it and this it sucks lol!

Ode to my faults

Adia I do believe I failed you
Adia I know I let you down
don't you know I tried so hard
to love you in my way
it's easy let it go


Adia I'm empty since you left me
trying to find a way to carry on
I search myself and everyone
to see where we went wrong


'Cause there's no one left to finger
there's no one here to blame
there's no one left to talk to honey
and there ain't no one to buy our innocence


'Cause we are born innocent
believe me Adia, we are still innocent
it's easy, we all falter
does it matter?


Adia I thought we could make it
but I know I can't change the way you feel
I leave you with your misery
a friend who won't betray
I pull you from your tower
I take away your pain
and show you all the beauty you possess
if you'd only let yourself believe that
we are born innocent
believe me Adia, we are still innocent
it's easy, we all falter, does it matter?
believe me Adia, we are still innocent


'Cause we are born innocent
Adia we are still
it's easy, we all falter ... but does it matter?

Not Ready..

I’ve come to realize that our lives can change literally in a second. That I cannot “wait” for things to happen. Those things that may seem impulsive or random really are the essence of what changes are lives. I feel like I was this kid who was living her life with a false sense of the world. It is like I was in this bubble that kept me thinking that every year that comes will bring me the same thing. I was ready to leave home, I wasn’t ready to have sex, I wasn’t ready to fall in love, and I wasn’t ready to lose my friends. I wasn’t ready for any of that. Then I ask myself what am I ready for? I come to the conclusion that I am never really ready for anything. I am scared and I always feel like I don’t understand why my head constantly thinks of things that don’t agree with my heart. I think every time I ever followed my heart I got hurt but every time I followed my head I advanced to the next step in life but I wasn’t exactly fulfilled. When I am left with these options which one do I choose? Do I choose a happy existence with the worse conditions and lose everyone it he process. Or do I lead an existence with everything I ever wanted but still feel empty inside. Again my head always wins. I wish I could not care about were I end up I wish I never worried about how my life my end up. I wish I could just be random and go for what I truly believe. I am so afraid of failure. I am so afraid of the world and all the evil that is in it. I wish it could all make sense. But it doesn’t.

Goodbye to High School

My life has consisted of hurting people, making people life, lying, cheating, supporting people, encouraging people, and all the above. I am HUMAN! This means that just like eve gave that apple to Adam we all fuck up! Sometime we fuck up to the point of no return...well in terms with people. I Will always be the optimist for other people. Let alone my self. I am Glad that people tell me off and hurt me. I am very stubborn. I am the type of person you need to tell "fuck you" in order for me to understand. I guess i am a type of masochist. Which is sad. Who wants to go around hurting themselves all the time right? Well, that is just me. I am trying to change it. I guess i am somewhat emotionally retarded. I somehow fear that this will continue as i get older. I just can't wait until the day i can become one with my faults. That process has started today. Along with letting go of my Friends from High School. I guess i have hurt them too much. I know i will get over it i just need time.